Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I'm a Worry Wart

I've always had problems sleeping when things are weighing on my mind. Last night or should I say this morning at 2:30AM I popped wide awake. First thought was I need to get a piece of paper to write out all our monthly expenses. Why you may ask? My husband's compassionate reassignment to stay at Joint Base Lewis McChord has not come through. After eleven & a half years in WA they are now suddenly saying it is Okay for us to move Jeremy to Georgia.  They have none of the specialists he requires on post so we would be driving at least an hour or more to reach the doctors when he needs them. I am not quite sure what the Army is thinking except that they aren't. I figure this is their way of getting Paul to drop his retirement packet. They give a 3 year duty station to a senior NCO & know that his family most likely won't be able to follow.

I told Paul last night the kids & I discussed it we have no problem moving in June after school is out. His report date is set for early this December. We would be with out him for about seven months but that is not bad considering all the deployments a drop in the Army Family bucket. His response is NO we aren't uprooting our older kids one who will start his junior year in the Fall of 2013. The other options are us moving there for only the summer months while the kids do the school year in WA- not my first pick but a viable choice. Summer in GA would mean sun , close to the Florida beaches, & the grandparents. The kids where all on board for this option-lol I wonder why?

The last option which is what Paul really wants & truth be told I want for him because I know he is exhausted is to drop his retirement packet. After twenty-two years of service this is what the Army hands you retirement in a horrible economy. That is why I was up crunching numbers trying to figure out what type of income we need to make to supplement his retirement. Because unlike when he enlisted twenty - two years ago, he does not get all he was promised. Politics plays a huge role in that which I find humorous considering it is election day. Here is my plug- GO VOTE or DO NOT COMPLAIN! Period end of my voters ad for the day.

We both need to find jobs ahead of time before his retirement would take effect unless he magically lands a job that will give us about half of what we will loose. I don't mind tightening our belts and living like we did about five years ago. I admit we have gotten way to use to his deployment pay and his paycheck now. The kids will go into shock when the tighten happens but it is what it is, folks. No jobs in the USA means no money which means super tight budgets .

So that folks is what has me up at 2:30AM in complete panic mode & I think disbelief. That after seventeen years as an Army wife or girlfriend it could possibly be over in as little as six months or I hope after crunching numbers closer to a year. That way we have a little more time to tighten our belts & look for jobs.

I almost forgot to mention the fact that my job will need to be during school hours only so that if Jeremy get's sick I am available - which makes it that much harder. I prayed twice already this morning that God calm my nerves & quiet my brain. I am sure I will stop to pray several more times today. I know he knows our future and that worrying will not change a thing. But I'm human and a mom so it's what I do, I'm a worry wart as my mom would say.

Matthew 6:25-34

2“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.


Anonymous said...

such a shame that they are treating someone who has served for so long, and dedicated everything he has, to the Army.

I am sorry. I really hope everything works out in the best possible way.

Amanda said...

Thanks lady, it is quite a shocker - but I know in my heart it will work out. Now to find some jobs!