With my soldier gone as the ten year anniversary of 9-11 approaches this weekend I am nervous. I know he is as safe as he can possibly be while deployed, but it is still unnerving. Yesterday while on post heightened security measures went into effect, which made my anxiety a little worse. So as I thought about sharing my song choice for this week with everyone here & over at Goodnight Moon. I decided to go with Darryl Worley's " Have you Forgotten" ? It goes with my Blog Post from earlier in the week Remembering the Day the World Changed. I didn't go with the video from YOUTUBE. I took an hour of my time & made one that means a lot more to me. It shows images that help us all Remember that horrible day. The day that changed my world forever.
I hope you take a moment to watch, remember, & pray for all those lost that day. As well as pray for all our soldiers still protecting our freedom around the globe.
Make sure you head over to see Amber at Goodnight Moon to hear some more great songs of the week & link up your own!
To most Americans ten years ago the unbelievable unfolded in front of our eyes on TV. I can remember sitting in my living room in Lacey, WA watching the Today show as the second plane flew into the World Trade Center's second tower. I remember I was feeling a little tired & had just got Hunter ready to take to Kindergarten for the day. I stopped & sat down on our coffee table . I stared in disbelief at the TV screen to listen to Katie Couric & Matt Lauer discuss what was happening in New York. We where under attack but from who? What did this mean for my husband, what did this mean for my family , & what did this mean for my country? All questions that flew through my mind as my phone started ringing off the hook .
My neighbor phoned to see if I knew what was happening? I told her I knew only what I had seen on TV. At some point I remember Paul calling from post telling me to stay home & keep Hunter home from school. School by that time I had forgotten to even take him, not that I ever would have let him leave my sight that day. Paul said the post was on High Alert no incoming or out going traffic allowed & he would most likely just sleep at his office. He would call if he had any other information. I remember sitting in front of that TV for hours that day while trying to function & take care of the three boys. I remember crying on the phone with other Army wives and friends over the now uncertainty of our families world. We knew it meant our daily lives where forever changed, but what we could never know is that ten years later it would still be going on for our families. For all military families around the globe the ten year conflict has worn us out both physically & emotionally .
Some of our closest friends have gone off to protect America & never returned. We have watched as their families say goodbye & we pray for our own soldiers still fighting. We watch as our own soldiers continue a viscous cycle of everyother year deployments that have left our men & women scarred for life. Their homes, families never to be the same. The divorce rate sky rocketing among the military who are simply not quipped mentally to take care of the wounded physically or to help heal the invisible scars. We haven't forgotten not for one single day what happened on 9-11 even if it seems most of the rest of the nation has. That they only remember this one single time of the year because everyone puts the images back out in the media. Shouldn't those reminders be put out to our nation to the world on a daily basis ? I know in my home they are talked about regularly & why daddy is gone again?
We don't hold grudges , we know this is his job, no one has to remind us of that - even though they like to point it out on days I seem weary. Weary from carrying the load of being both mom & dad to four young boys who just miss their dad. Sad and on the verge of tears when my youngest doesn't seem to think this is not normal for most families. You see I was pregnant with him on 9-11 but didn't know it yet. In his young nine years of life his dad has been gone four of those years.
Unlike my older two boys who only knew that dad went away for training once in awhile up until that fateful day in September ten years ago. This is our new normal Dad gone for years at a time , all the time.
I don't want this post to be a "feel sorry for me & mine" post, I just want it to be a Loud-Harsh reminder to those of you who don't remember daily of what it has cost our country. Not just the loss of life though it is now over 6,000 soldiers who have given the sacrifice for you to walk around daily in a free nation. But what about those families who live daily with the wounded both physically & with PTSD. Those veterans who are only nineteen years old who can no longer close their eyes at night for fear of what they will see behind closed eyes. The marriages that hang on by a strand because we are a fiercely proud lot of spouses who know what our best friend, our loves use to be like ,before. How we hang on in hopes of seeing even the smallest glimpse of that person at least once in awhile. Though it can be days, weeks, even months in between that we see our old loves- in a short brief laugh or smile. Then the shadows come back, the nightmares that wake both you & them up at night. What's the cost been to America?
That day it was a huge vivid picture for all of the world to see & grieve right along side America. Today it a small image or news story the occasional flash of picture of the loss of another American life for most. But for those of us living with ten years of war we see a huge deep bleeding wound that is still running through our nation. We see the cost daily, we live with the fear of the unknown hourly, we are on our knees praying unceasingly are you? Below is some pictures that I have accumulated over the past ten years since 9-11, this is my reality . This is the reality of many of Americans across this great nation - please remember more then once a year - that is all we ask.
I can only locate one picture from a Welcome Home Ceremony in 2004 since we didn't have a digital camera yet.
Welcome Home Daddy Nov 2004
Deployment Ceremony April 2007
Hunter & Matthew second Deployment Ceremony 2007
Last picture I have of Paul with Dave - RIP
Last picture of all the boys with Paul 2006
Goodbye Daddy 2007
My husband & his friends saying Goodbye to a Fallen Brother Iraq 2007
Recon 2008 Iraq
Paul with Wounded Warrior & friend Jessie Re-deployment 2008
First kiss in 13 long months!
4th Brigade Memorial Dedication 2008
First time to hug dad in 13 months
Wives at home having lunch & waiting on their soldiers
Goodbye again April 2009
CPT M reenlisting a soldier in Iraq 2010
Fountain reading a card of Thanks that was sent from a local daycare to all soldiers in Aztec Company 2010 Iraq
Welcome home 4th Brigade August 2010
Welcome Home 1SG Evershed August 2010
Redeployment Ceremony Early October 2010
Proud 2BN23IN Families watching Awards Ceremony
My soldier receiving his third Bronze Star in 3 years Oct 2010
Loss of a dear friend,father, & husband
Deployment Ceremony to Afghanistan June 2011
Last Family picture before deploying to Afghanistan June 2011
Last hour & picture together July 5,2011
Goodbye my love.....July 5,2011
First SKYPE call & time we have seen him mid-August 2011 Afghanistan
Our story like so many other families around the globe is to be continued....... all we ask is that as we continue to support America ,that America's citizens continue to support us a well.
**EDIT Adding this video for those who want to listen**
