Today,
I was running the Boston Marathon. I was the cheerful girl zipping
through the marathon with a swish of her red polka dotted skirt and a
huge smile on her face. I ribbed the army people working the course
with my call out, "Air Power." I stopped twice to use the potty and I
was but a quarter mile from the end when I heard a loud boom, felt the
street shake, and started to smell a smell I
never smelled before. All hell broke loose. People were screaming and
sprinting away from the finish line. The race immediately ended. For
me, a girl who was invited to run to honour her soldier who was taken by
another terrorist on 27 April 2011, it threw me back into a spot where I
immediately felt out of control, that my life was being torn apart, and
I stood immobilized sobbing for again the terrorist sought to take yet
another thing that matters in my life.
I find joy in running
and I have grabbed my life back by running. It is the singular aspect
of my life that allows me to find my faith and to find happiness. I am
sitting in total disbelief. How could it be that two potty breaks saved
me today? How can it be that as I was running to snub my nose at the
terrorist that took Phil, another sought to destroy the hard fought for
happiness I have found. It cannot end this way. I am shaking and I am
physically ill tonight, but I will pick myself up one faltering step at a
time until I can run victorious once again. I cannot let these vile
monsters create any more fear in my life. I just can't.
There
were heroes today. I met a man who was an instructor at my training
these past weeks. He brought his family and found me. He got me back
to my hotel. A nurse sat with me as I sobbed my eyes out and shook
violently in the Dunkin Doughnuts store. So many people called me. My
phone did not have reception, yet the singular two phone calls that got
through were phone calls from people who came to get me. My children
were terrified and that is what hurts. This event brought fear back
into my family--fear of loss and fear of violent acts. How can I fix
the hurts in my children when I am right there? I ask for prayers and I
ask for some time to process this event. I will find the strength that
I fall into with my faith. The terrorist will never EVER maim my
heart, my spirit, or my drive to live life out loud. Got that?
The cowards could not have anticipated the out pouring of human kindness, all though they should have if they can remember 9-11 at all.
I was honored to run in blue for Boston today. I was joined by some amazing friends & all over the globe as others laced up to run today. We will not stop running if anything it makes me a lot more excited for my first half-marathon in June. It makes me want to train harder to finish. I will continue to pray for all those in Boston tonight that lost loved ones or have injured family members. I will keep running will you?
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