I never imagined in my wildest dream that on November 12, 2011 that this wonderful cute cuddly golden would work his way into my heart like he did. I also never thought that almost exactly a year later he would be given away to a new home. Banyan could not pass his Service Dog training and was re-homed today. My emotions are all over the place. When I look at pictures I weep so many tears.I question every choice I made from the time we brought him home.
Did I some how contribute to his failing as Jeremy's dog. Did I cause the pain in my chest or was it no fault of my own. I can't stop wondering and wishing I had never gotten on that plane to Colorado back in October. I honestly felt I was doing the best thing for Banyan & Jeremy. Now I wonder if it was the stress that made this awful situation happen. I hate that I couldn't jump on a plane the minute we found out to go pick him up to bring him home.
I wish we could have brought him home to just be our pet, but we couldn't and now he is gone to a new home. I am at peace with the family who is getting our beloved Banyan but I can't help but wonder if this somehow could of all been avoided.
Now where do we go what do we do to get a dog for Jeremy. Options are limited and funding as well. I just hate feeling like I failed my child & Banyan. It is not a good feeling. Thanksgiving week is usually the happiest week around our home. Instead I can't stop crying.
Here are a few of our favorite Banyan & Jeremy moments from the past 11 months. I ask for prayers from our family & friends that God takes care of Banyan. That he is loved and safe now in his new home. I ask for prayers for me as I try to naviagte this world of Service Dogs with integrity and do what is best for our family.
Banyan's first time swimming at our lake . I got soaked & he loved it!
Banyan turns 1
Thank You Banyan for allowing us to love you for the past year . You have forever changed my life.